Hello Mr Sun~

along this week, i read about the flood situation in East Coast. selangor also having heavy rains and strong winds which cause dull and gloomy days. my family face up to the problem of wet clothes increases day by day because of non-stop raining. at last, my father had an idea and changed one of the room inside our house like a laundry shop. we hang all the wet clothes all over the room and let the fan working 24hours per day. it takes 2 days for the earliest trip of wet clothes to fully dried. if the fan can speaks, i noe it will cried out loud.haha.

but not today. yes. it is so sunny and bright. after a week with dark skies, finally mr sun gets out from his hiding place. thank you very much:)) i dont need to take along my umbrella wherever i go. i dont need to worry about having flu or fever. i dont need to worry about getting sleep all the day because of cold weather (sdap tdo tme hujan2..). i feel energetic and less stress of course though my eyes cant stand over the very bright light from the sun;p

apart from that, my heart worries about something. someone just ask me whether im having too much food or not. wth. why? because im getting fatter?? ouh my prada, i am really sensitive if someone talking about my weight. shut up you. we dont meet for quite some times and you thought i should keep slim like when i was in form 3? ure kiding me? come on lah, people changes with time ok. as long as im happy with myself, why u should worried about my weight more than i ever do? but now, when i keep looking at my current pictures, i can see that i am getting fatter. im not happy with that and it is your fault! tomorrow will be eidul adha and my mother and i very busy at kitchen tonite. rendang, ketupat, kuah kacang and kek coklat. i just stare at those food because i can hear voice inside my head saying that you are fat, you are fat, you are fat. (pnah tgk cter buli yg afdlin shauki ngn nasha aziz tu? it was something like that..). I AM NOT HAPPY with this. i should eat those food because i helped my mother to prepare the foods with all my heart. i want to eat but im afraid if im getting fatter. i dont really take this kind of problem into serious one before because i always think, if im happy and njoy eating, why someone should stop me. but now, because of you, yes you! who said three times already to me that im getting fatter and that was so annoyed me; i dont enjoyed my foods today:((

ps: i need weighing scale rite now. i really mean it. *sigh*

pps: salam aidiladha buat semua umat islam di malaysia esok. eh, arini. dah pukul 2pg?? gejala insomnia mungkin:p org len korbankan lembu kambing unta, sye korbankan tidur?? maaf zahir batin buat semua:)

Pengakuan Maaf

sye kecewa...

ngan diri sendiri..
ngan salah paham nie..

sbb ikut kata hati..
sbb tak pikir kawan..
sbb tak ambil peduli betul2..

sori...
sbbkan org lain kecewa..
sbbkan org lain putus harapan..

sahabat,
mintak maaf kalau terasa ngan perbuatan aku..
jujur aku tak paham situasi awal2..
kau tak cakap kehadiran lagi sorang..
jangan kecik hati ngan aku lama2 ok?
kita sahabat sampai bila2...

kawan,
marahlah aku selagi kau termampu..
sungguh aku tak terdaya menepis kata2mu..
sbb aku taw,itu memang silap aku..
buat kau tertunggu..

moga kalian maafkan ketidakhadiranku...

Simple yet Meaningful

"Don't you ever to start it when you don't know how to end it"

...i dun noe where i got this quote, its just pop up in my mind and therefore, i write it here. do agree with me? simple yet soo meaningful...

and this one, not related with the quote's above. did you ever heard bout Hum Tum?

cerita hindustan. rani mukherjee & saif ali khan plakon utama. baru jek habes tgk kat TV2 wlaupun pnah banyak kali tgk sblum ni kat TV3. im crying while watching it. the last time i cried because of kekotak ajaib tv tuh is watching 'nur kasih' last 2weeks with syikin at our lovely apartment at BMI. it was the time when katrina nazak. sedeyh gle kot time tue. then here i am, because of Hum Tum. this film is different from other hindustan movies. soo sweet:) you must watch it too!!

A Monthly Problem

finished already with my 2 days IELTS extra classes with madam mai at bmi. so many inputs to digest and hopefully i do well in upcoming test held on 4th & 5th december. me and fana have lots of stories that better kept by ourselves but my heart begging to tell you about this, haha. evil. sori guys especially my lovely BMIans' gurl, i feel like telling everyone is better rather than i kept by myself this scary stories. staying a night at that apartment with only accompanied by ONE gurl friend when theres no student at all in your little university is super duper scary okie. everyone went back to their hometown already and your 7-level-apartment only full of staff until level 3. level 4 til level 7 is supposedly no students at all during this semester break. last night, i heard LOTS of sound at my upper house which is at level 5 coz my house is at level 4. what i can tell you guys, from the beginning of this semester, all 4 houses at level 5 are empty. supposedly no students and SUPPOSEDLY no sounds make from that level, you got what i mean? my heart beats faster than komuter per second you know. what the heck im comparing this? i heard a group of students laughing, sounds like someone pull a katil-double-decker-yg-macam-kat-asrama-government-dulu-padahal-bmi-katil kayu-jek-ader, someone having their shower, washing their dishes at kitchen and even sound like someone trying to break your front door by gegar-pintu-kau-macam-nak-tercabut-dah. thats why i told you its super duper scary because you already know, those thing are toltally not HOMOSAPIENS. ok, its time to forget all those things. i might be staying at bmi next week also. sumpah takot. selamat kau kacau ktrg dgn bunyi sgala bagai jek, tlg jgn kacau dalam rumah ktrg ok.. haishh.. lomah semangat den..

you know why im talking bout komuter just now? let me story first but i want to warn you, the contents might be kind of an emosional one. hehs~

everyone knows about 1 Malaysia. the 'rakyat didahulukan pencapaian diutamakan' thinggy. somehow i dont know what is that all about. propaganda semata. apa yg krajaan buat? mula2 ko hapuskan MDEC, MARA takleh survive dok bawah menteri luar bandar. ramai anak melayu tak dapat peluang sambung belajar kat overseas sebab MARA dah habes duit. ko taw, skrang takde budak postgraduate dapat sambung blajar kat UK tmasuk lecturer2 aku kat BMI tue. dyrg dah simpan duit anak bini punya tiket nak pegi uk sebab everything dah settled tinggal tunggu mara lepaskan wat visa jek tp satu hari nie, sume orang gempar. mara hantar emel cakap dyrg takleh pegi sebab mara dah tak hantar budak postgrade kat sana mulai saat tue. lecturer aku menangis 2hari 2malam. budak2 undergrade plx mintak sponsor macam2 tp harap kt mara jela sbb slame ni senang dpt sponsor mara. tp sume mara reject, tu pon slamat JPA trima. dengar citer lagi, budak2 KMB yg amek medic dpt rcsi, mara dah tak hantar sana sebab mahal. ni ke weyh rakyat didahulukan? bukak mata bsar2 ok!

then i read a news here, i was like....?? yesterday, i went to bmi by train. it was 7.30am. PEAK hours. i am lucky, without waiting for so long, the train comes and i managed to get into the komuter. after arrived at kl sentral, im rushing to lrt putra to continue my journey to terminal putra station. i bought a ticket and went straight to the platform. im quite impressed because everyone was lined up nicely into several lines, it was a very long line actually. but everyone managed to dicipline themselves and no such things like someone from your back pushed you harshly to get themselves into the train also. theres no SUCH thing! i really impressed. but because of that, i missed 3 trains and can only get into the 4th train. the trains come with only 3minutes gap. then i knew, why people can lined up so nicely before, because theres no other reasons why you should push and get stuck in crowded inside the train when you already know the next train will be coming in less than 3minutes. haha. people seems so smart than what we think they are..

in contrast, i remembered about my experience this evening. i dont know why i should troubling myself travel by train during peak hours. takdir kot. and its FRIDAY babeyh. when ure being a regular customer which what i mean, train is your main transport to go anywhere around klang valley, u will know that friday is the worst day to travel by train. maybe its because people going back to their hometown to spend their weekend with beloved family. i guess so. i took lrt from gombak to kl sentral and it was perfectly nice because im able to get a seat, thank god gombak was a last station. BUT the same thing not happened with komuter. i arrived at kl sentral at 6.30pm and having two doughnuts while waiting for my sister. the digital board shows that train to kajang will be coming in 5minutes more. my sister and i rushing to platform6. as always, theres sooo many people and we cant get through the 1st train. sume org tolak2 macam dah buta dalam train tue dah mampat macam sardin dalam tin. i could heard someone said,"tue lar slalu sgt delay, kan jadi cmni". i do agree with her. komuter's services is totally bad. dala train sikit, selang pulak 30minit, pastu slalu rosak.

then when the next train coming, it was my nightmare. tak sempat pon org dalam train nak keluar, someone from my back pushed me to the train's door. sorang makcik with her baby nak keluar dari train tp tsangkut. pastu pnatla aku mintak maaf kat makcik tue sebab terlanggar dia. i was shouted back, 'what the heck..' and before i could finished my lines, i saw a young lady from the inside of train stared at me. and i was like... helo, aku nak kasik makcik tue keluar dulu ok tp org blkg aku tolak macam aku nie barang plastik sampai terlanggar makcik tue sebab tue lar aku sumpah seranah td.bukannye aku mencarut kat ko pon tp utk org yg tolak aku tue... damn you the young lady. when im able to get into the train, i stared at the door. i was like... again... korg buta ke weyh, badan sume org dah melekat sesme sndri dalam train ni ha, ko nak tolak jgak masok dlm train ni watpe.dah takde ruang langsung pon.pakai otak boleh tak... it was monolog dalaman only. then a lady beside me said, "jgnla tolak lagi, kang tberanak jgak aku dalam train ni kang". super takot bila aku dengar kakak tue cakap camtu. im trying to give her more space sebab ader sorang cina pompuan nie pandai sangat bukannye nak bagi kakak depan dia ni duduk padahal atas kpale ader signboard tmpat ni khas utk OKU, pmpn mengandung ngan org tua but i am not able to do so because i cant even move at any angle at all. when its like my cases, you cant even pick up your phone calling from your dad because there is no way your hand is able to get into the very outside pocket of your lovely BUM shoulder bag where you put your handphone is. things get more worse when you are standing near mamat indon yang tak sedar diri angkat tangan tinggi2 sampai semerbak haruman taik lembu sampai kat hidung kau. oh my dior, i breath using my mouth ok, my nose cant stand any longer that smell. i was like... kau pernah tengok iklan rexona tak?yg armpit dia gelap pastu dia nak angkat tangan pon malu. ni armpit kau busuk tp kau dengan bangganye angkat tangan kau tinggi2 tanpa segan silu...

this time, you read the above news that i linked for you again. can you manage to relate my stories with that news? did you see any lines that come out with issues to improve komuter services? NO AT ALL. tawla PM baru penah naik lrt konon2 turun padang nak tgk macam mana pengangkutan awam kt malaysia nih tp knape tak tgk komuter skali. lrt tue guna letrik ok, mmgla service baek punya. menteri pengangkutan pon menyorok dalam bilik aircond jeke.. nak improve lrt ngan ktmb jek watpe, cuba lar turun padang tgk camna komuter beroperasi pulak. baru gigit jari nanti. ni takde langsong ciri 'pencapaian diutamakan'. sebab tue dah cakap siang2 tadi, propaganda semata. think by yourself.. am i cakap omong kosong??

ok, enough of that. this is why i write the monthly problem as my title. ladies got PMS once in a month. the result? is what you read above. hehs.. one thing that can only makes me smile back today is related with TWENTY TWO:) i love to count it by months. bigger number you get rather than when you count it by years. gitchee2 goo!

Dedications

starting from tomorrow, ill be working hard on my IELTS. i spent 3days on my comfy bed at home n it seems enough for me as i realized myself, im not prepared anything for that IELTS. the exam will be on 4th & 5th december. do pray for me. i want score band 6.5 n above even i know, brunel accepts me with band 6 at least. but lets do like what sheffiled's requirement, where majority going there.

special dedication to my brother, do your best in your SPM! i noe you can. doa mak ayah nini 1 family will always there for u:)

n this one is dedicated to budak busuk kuasa lima, your final exam is coming less than 3weeks. studi hard okie. i hold ur promise. cant wait for that moment! so, pliz3 perform your very best.. gitchee2 goo;)

oh yeah!

photo shoot right after last paper, circuit & signal. final exam is over!! yeahh bebeh:D

minggu berperang sbb studi last minutes dah tamat. boleh pcaye tak, spanjang mggu exam, sye tido hanya 4-5 jam shari? tu pon 2jam siang, lagi 2-3 jam belah malam. sila lar pcaye ok, smangat kental utk budak kuat tido cam sye;p dala jadual exam pack sgt3.. shari ader 1 paper, tiap2 ari dr isnin smpi jumaat. 5paper 1minggu. mane tak pecah kpale.. n skrang, rasa release sgt2. sumpah. sye nak qada' tido byk2,haha..

tapi...

IELTS 4 disember nih. crius tak ready pape. so, conclusion?? belom boleh rehat lagi ye izni.

tp hari nie bukan utk tambah stres. selongkar folder gambar, jumpa yg ni. yeah, tersenyum:) hari bergelak ketawa 13org tgk cte papadom kat times square. ouh, sgt gembira..

2minggu sblm studi week..

satu lagi

second last paper, 12/11/09
mathematics
alhamdulillah.wajah2 ceria keluar dewan.

ya, esok LAST paper!
circuit & signal.
chaiyo2!!

Down...

third paper
digital system
ure killing me.

mak, ayah.. sori kalau kena repeat subjek nie... T-T

War Begins

first paper

electronic devices

finish!

happy?? err.. exactly nope:(

just pray for the best..

Hari Nie~

h.o.m.e.s.i.c.k

gedik kau izni.hahahihihuhu..

final exam stat isnin smpi jumaat minggu depan,9-13 nov 2009. tarikh keramat ouh. kena struggle utk dptkn piawaian MARA 1st class engineering,70%. gedik lgi skali, senior dlu 2nd class pn lepas. aishh2 jgn merungut yer izni.. ingat senang ke skunk nak gi UK?? chaiyo2!! ops salah, bahasa ibunda lebih afdal.. boleh2!! erkk?? tak sedap,hehs..

studi week di BMI tidak seperti di kebanyakan Uni lain. ader klas jgak.. apakah?? takpe2 utk masa depan bersama. haha.. tapi stres. nak balik rumah. dan tapi lagi sekali, ayah tak kasik balik rumah.. sob2:(( ayah suro dok diam2 kat BMI smpi abes exam bru boleh balik. itu arahan, tidak boleh ada tentangan.. aiya~ dan disebabkan tue, sye paksa mak ngan ayah datang BMI, hehe:D sye paksa mak masak jgak.. petang ni sampai,yay!! :))

td kaklong tepon, ajak pegi jusco wangsa maju. konon2 dekat ckit ngan gombak wlupun ktrg slalu shoping kt jusco mid valley.. gedik kan? nak ajak org shoping 2ari sblm exam. aish2.. tggu minggu depan tak bley kew.. sabaq na.. habes jek exam, kita joli! haha.. dah lama tak shoping, RINDU!! baju,kasut,beg, tunggu!! hahahihihuhu..

dan.. hari nie & esok, awak takde:(( sye nak marah dean MIAT npe bagi bdak tue pegi kem minggu ni bley? huhu.. ah, perlukan awk sgt2 disaat stres begini. sila blk cepat2 dr kem okie?? awak dgr tak??? ok, merepek. mana nak dgr.. dy kat klang, sye kat gombak. sejam lbih ok perjalanan.. tp sila dgr ni.. gitchee gitchee goo:)

tamat sudah kemerepekan hari ini. sambung studi yer izni..
p/s:doakan sye bjaye dgn cemerlang gemilang dan terbilang utk final kali nie.aaminn..

Unconscious

tajuk je dalam english ok, mahu merepek dalam bahasa ibunda. lebih afdal walaupun IELTS sye tak sampai sebulan pon lagi.. biaq pi lantak hang lar..

unconscious ataupun dalam bahasa bukan penjajah, tidak sedar selalu berlaku kepada diri semasa baru bangun dari tidur. tak kira lar tido 5minit pon mesti berlaku jgak. lagi2 kalau tidur pas asar.. macam aritu bukan dah tak sedar lagi, tp jdi gila tros. haha.. bayangkan sye tidur dri kol 5 ptg smpi 7.30mlm, bgn2 tros smayang maghrib pastu sye dok termenung kat meja studi tak tahu nak watpe. smpila lbih kurang kol 8.20 cmtu, tetiba sye jdk gelabah n tros masok bilik, sye tny aina.

"korang dah smayang ke?".

aina pon reply, "smayang apa?"

laju jek sye jawab, "maghrib."

ngan muka aina yg tkejut, "maghrib? mestila da. apsal? ko tak smayang lagi ke? izniiii!!!!! dah kol 8.30 dala!!!"

ngan muka selenge, sye geleng kpale. cuba mengingati knape sye sorg jek tak smayang lagi. pastu sye lari keluar bilik, cuba dapatkan seorang lagi roommate, sofi. tetiba ilham dtg dlm kpale. aku macam dah smayang jek.. monolog dalaman okie.. sye tny sofi, "aku smayang maghrib sebelah ko kan tadi??" sofi pon cakap "haah". tengok, memang gila. sampai smayang pon dah lupa. ni lar padah tidur lepas asar ok kwn2..

apa ni? nak cter pasal tak sedar diri. terstori pasal gila plx.. aishh2.. snanye nak cakap pasal ble berada dalam keadaan tak sedar diri yakni waktu baru bgn tido, sye paling benci buat keputusan dlm keadaan tue. tak kesah lar keputusan apa pon. contohla time tue sye tido ptg, pastu korg kejut n tanya nak pegi dinner kt kafe tak skunk. besenye sye akan jawab taknak, tp bila dalam keadaan betul2 sedar baru rasa menyesal teramat sebab perot dah nyanyi lagu ghazal, zapin mahupun punk rock. lapar seyh.. pembohong kalau sye ckp taknak pegi makan. sye wajib makan 2-3 kali shari. makan berat lagi tue. see see?? sye benci buat kputusan dlm keadaan TIDAK SEDAR.

dan skunk sye menyesal ngan kputusan yg sye buat 2ari lepas. juga dlm keadaan mamai bgn tido. kalau sesiapa yg sempat membaca entri 2nd latest yg sye wat tgh mlm kelmarin sebelum akhirnye sye wat kputusan untuk save as draft sahaja, boleh tak korg abaikan?? hahahihihuhu.. bukan sbb apa, tp sye sudah jumpa sebab yg lebih meyakinkan utk sye tros ber'facebook'ing. trima kasih kpd mr X yg memberi sebab munasabah utk sye meneruskan perjuangan bersosial di laman tersebut. tp masih belum aktifkan balik. lepas final exam ni mungkin.. kepada kaklong, sorila tak bgtw awal2, cakap kat kak lin, nanti org aktifkan akaun fb org balik.. kpd rakan2 yg bengang ngan sye, mintak maaf okie. unconscious beb. huhu.. jgn benci aku yer:)

salam syg kepada semua..

dan kepada hamba allah tersebut, mungkin awak kecewa ngan sye. sye terima.. kalau mahukan kepastian knape sye bertindak sedemikian, msg sye ye.. sye boleh berikan penjelasan mutakhir kpd awk..

Lompat Tinggi-Tinggi

sye nak pergi bungee jump boleh??

kesan stress blaja utk final..huhu

Bloukrans Bridge, South Africa - 710 ft (216 m)

style ah!

:D

Smile?

this would be great...




rather than this one rite?

one week to final but i dun finish anything yet. so stressed out. ya Allah, please give me the strength like You gave me before in Nerang. felt so lonely even im surrounded by soo many good friends. i miss the smile but then i cant get it.. im not even in UK ok. this is not a lesson, this is much harder for me than u even know..

if u can understand...

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wishing i am strong enough to face the same things happen again..

theres no wrong to rely on someone during this stage.. only if u noe dat..

u want me to be independent, I WILL.. like i oweys do from my very young. ill SHOW u..






i hate this,u noe??